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| Short Stories : An angel on the internet |
A touch of the finest kind in an impossible way.
Angels on the internet, who thinks that is possible? Only a madman would think of looking for the angels there. Angels are not just these winged beings, as we know them from the Judeo-Christian tradition, who live in some dusty heavenly realms. Nor are they dead who suddenly grow wings. I am convinced that angels move on earth, just like you and me. That is why I firmly believe that there are angels and that they save our lives when we call them. You and I may well be part of it, since each of us has angelic abilities just waiting to be exposed. And when we first recognize who an angel is, then life suddenly turns into a wonderful adventure and the people we meet are no longer faceless strangers, but goods of good luck.
All my life I have asked for an angel, but under the wrong idea, I have not met anyone. It was not an easy life for me because I fought many struggles to achieve one goal after another. Very often I asked God for help, but not to let my burden be so heavy. Again and again he helped me in a wonderful way, whenever I couldn't go any further and I was so desperate, he showed himself. So I always had the necessary energy to solve my problems. At the right time, I kept meeting people who helped me see the path I had to go. It's about people who weren't around me for long. Some of them are my best friends today. They came into my life, very inconspicuous and gave me a bit of courage, or an idea how to do it better and most of them went on their way. Only today did I realize that these were people with angelic abilities.
Angels are on duty around the clock, they watch us, they see our actions and know how things are going. Believe it or not, they know what we are thinking and they feel our sadness. We unconsciously call her by saying: Oh, God, help me! In this desperation, we cannot imagine anyone hearing us at all. We feel completely alone and filled with fear.
A few weeks ago when a relationship that was very valuable to me broke up, a world collapsed within me. The pain paralyzed my mind and all I felt was the stinging in my heart. It seemed like the man who was my love took a piece of my soul with him. Horrible days began when I cried far too much and made up for the loss of tears with wine. I could no longer take a reasonable thought, I only felt blind anger and the fear of having to live alone in the future. I had no idea how to go on without this man I still loved so much? It was my last thought every night and the first every morning. I longed so much for him to be around and for everything he gave me throughout our relationship. How he loved and treated me had become mine, as I have wished for my whole life and I was infinitely happy with him. But he couldn't give me anything anymore and wanted to go his way and I couldn't stop him.
A difficult time began in which I urgently needed an angel to save me. But I couldn't think of an angel in this situation. I only thought of how I can take revenge on the man's world. With all my energy I wanted to teach every man I met a lesson and take what I was entitled to. Blinded by the pain of loss, I lost faith in the relationship. I couldn't imagine ever thinking differently again. In this situation I got to know one after the other over the Internet, it seemed to be going quite well for me, so that I could numb my pain sensation a little.
Some days I was afraid of my kind because I never attacked people like that. Despite this fear, I kept going and enjoyed playing with men.
It was clear to me that men are stupid, they have small brains and they scream to be mistreated by women. They just want to have fun and preferably without feelings. By that I mean, they are happy when it happens without love and responsibility. At the time, no angel seemed to dare to come near me, because my feelings were saturated with bitterness. One normal day I got an email from David, he was married and was looking for a discreet wife for an exciting adventure.
His first letter to me was not flattering; it was rather clumsy and tactless. Although it was not at all to my liking, I answered David's letter.
I asked him to describe himself in more detail and to let me know how he would like to meet me. He wrote to me about what he looks like, what he does to make him a clean and well-groomed man. He imagined how he would pamper me. Really nice feelings went through my body while reading this mail. It inspired me so much that this game could begin. I let him get a lot of my imagination to really get him going, because I wanted him to get hot. So hot that he could no longer sleep and was constantly on me; had to think about my game. It was a lot of fun and I got really hot too at the thought of really wanting to do what I was writing. Sometimes I could feel what was written, totally excited I lay in my bed. That night I fell asleep with my imagination accompanied by a beautiful dream.
In this dream I met David, he was tall and very well built, his broad upper body looked inviting to me, I only wanted to lie in his arms.
We went into a cozy little wine room, in which every table was lit by candlelight, the walls were paneled with wood and the floor creaked when walking over it. We found a cozy corner there where we were completely undisturbed. We were both happy when we finally sat down so that our excitement could subside. We sat at this beautiful table by candlelight and I was eager to look in the eyes. How much I love to look a man in the eyes to read his mind through his eyes. Eyes say a lot about a person, they are said to be the mirror of the soul. The natural light shimmered beautifully in his joy-filled eyes, so that this glow also made my eyes sparkle. I looked at him and could feel our excitement subside, his gaze found my gaze and we lost ourselves in it. David started to talk and while he was doing this I realized that he didn't want to remain a stranger to me. So I listened his warm, calm male voice and enjoyed it like the music that was playing in the background. He found the way to my desires, through my eyes and through my hearing. At the sight of his beautifully manicured hands, it was clear to me that the slightest touch would go under my skin. Like a magician he read my thoughts and put his hand on mine, at that moment I was slowly becoming powerless, because I knew that I would allow every further touch. David slipped closer, my heart beat faster, my eyes could no longer leave his gaze. It was done, at that moment I closed my eyes and forgot everything around me. Without thinking about the future, the second becomes shorter in a flap of the wings. As the stars fell from the sky and he kissed me, it dissolves and comes back as a minute. His big hands wanted to explore my body. His nose eagerly absorbed the scent of my skin, so that my senses turned. The need to feel something of his delicate touch everywhere grew stronger with every heartbeat. My lust began to dance and I just wanted to be willless, indulge my masculinity and experience the land of a thousand colors and scents.
The next day I worried a lot about David, he couldn't get out of my head.
Fixed by my dream, I wanted to hear his voice as soon as possible so that I could catch me again. Because it could be that his voice did not match my dream David and that I will become normal again. My gut feeling complained when I gave David my mobile number. If you don't dare, you won't win, my thinking said to my stomach.
In no way did I want to be the woman I was before and that included my new actions.
I couldn't get the thought out of my head that David couldn't be a bad man because I wouldn't be impressed by negative people. He must be a nice guy, maybe he's just looking for that tingling stomach and that butterfly feeling. If he has been sharing his life with a woman for so many years, it may be that this tingling sensation in his stomach has been lost. Even if we don't talk about it, we often think about how it was there anyway. These thoughts set desire free, there desire to experience it again before you can no longer do it. My mother once said: The human body falls apart and we are powerless to do anything about it. But inside, speak in the heart, this is where our most beautiful time lives, our youth. This time with all its experiences and feelings is always present. It is so alive that you can feel the passion of spring even in the winter of your life. What would you give for it? To be able to experience once again how lust and passion paired with feelings enchants our soul. My David probably has a wonderful wife who was always there for him and who has experienced the ups and downs of being with him. He probably cannot even imagine the thought of leaving his wife to flee to someone else. Just as we cannot imagine living without sunlight. Certainly David only misses the passionate exchange of tenderness and the tingling of feelings. Who doesn't miss that? I would also like to have a dear man with whom I could experience this, but also one who gives me the feeling of closeness and love for the rest of my life. But it wasn't given to me, everything in my life that I loved has left me again. Everyone took away a piece of my belief in what really matters. So that there isn't much left of it. David called me, his voice sounded shy and scared, it didn't give the impression of a professional who was used to flirting with a stranger every day.He didn't speak much, the moment of my apprehension came. A man with a wonderful writing style, but shy and reserved. His call pleased me but the dream diminished. Without knowing what I was getting myself into, I made an appointment with him for the next day around noon. He wanted to give me more details by phone. From that moment on, my energy could no longer be stopped, I wandered through the next few hours in a frenzy of beautiful thoughts. I was finally able to numb my pain and let my bitch way out. With this action I also wanted to destroy part of my longing for my past love. You have to have a lot of love in you if you want to destroy it. Today I know that it was completely wrong to think that way.
It was the morning of the day and because of the excitement I couldn't even operate my coffee machine properly. All of the coffee ran out of me so that not a drop of it remained. I was too in a good mood to swear, and with a smile I made myself a new, much better coffee. As if in excitement, I ran through my apartment. From one room to the other why I did this is clear to me today. You are very excited when you meet an angel. When I finally began to create myself into a seductive woman, my cell phone rang. This ringing got me cold in my current situation. My God, I was standing in the shower with my hair and legs lathered in. There was only one thought that shot through my head now and froze my gaze. Dear God, please don't read it to be David, please don't do this to me now. It was too late to answer my request, it was his turn. Worse still, it was close by, practically two minutes away. I felt very drowsy, I realized that I would have to go witchcraft if I want to be styled in two minutes. I don't remember what I said to him on the phone. I am only aware that it was an embarrassing babble of words. Unfortunately, I had to put him off and, with an hour of patience, banish him to a cafe. In a hurry, accompanied by groovy music, I got myself going and quickly became what I wanted to be. Fortunately, I didn't have enough time to be excited. I entered the cafe with serenity, purposefully approaching David without knowing him. He looked at me and then turned his gaze away from me. Afflicted with certainty, I stopped in front of him and waited for his reaction. It followed my thinking, he looked at me and smiled, I knew that it could only be him. His excitement was written on his face, it infected me, my legs began to tremble.Now I just wanted to find a place where no one could notice how excited I was. There was no candlelight and no romantic atmosphere, any romance had to be provided by us. Because where you don't bring romance, you won't find any. We started talking nervously, each of us wanted to be cool, as they say today. He began to tell about himself and his life with such a naturalness that I listened with astonishment. I knew for sure that I would like an adventure with this man and that no drink in the world would have captivated me in this cafe. I wanted to drag David to my house as quickly as possible to experience the exciting emails with him. He had no objection to my suggestion to trade this place for a better one. So we drove to my home, he with the idea of going on an adventure and I to realize my plan. We made ourselves comfortable with me and told each other a lot in the candlelight. After a short time, I knew a lot from his life, surprisingly I realized that he was a very nice man. Without being shy, he told me what moved him and why he was looking for an adventure. To my astonishment, my version of the thinking was confirmed, because David only wanted to know once what it is like to sleep with another woman. He was looking for that passionate tingling sensation under the skin that he missed so much in his life. I saw a sparkle of pride in his eyes when he talked about his wife. It was then that I realized how much he loves them. If a person believes that something is missing or missing in his life, then the desire to fulfill it plagues himself. With David this desire was so strong that he could not grow old in peace without knowing it. Now he wanted to know, I realized that when he came closer to me and hugged me. Inside I was filled with sadness, but I was ready to give him a gift in the hope that he would then realize that I hadn't missed anything. You can imagine how scared I was before the first kiss. But before I know it, David kissed me and I forgot everything around me. My senses revolved around my thoughts and I wanted to let myself fall into the arms of this man who has so much love in him. A flood of passion came over me. My body felt his hands, time lost in the touch on my skin. The desire in me could no longer be stopped,no matter what happened now, I wanted to experience, feel and taste it with all my energy. There was no more anger, no negative feeling and no thought of my lost love. Only the desire for this experience moved me. We both wanted to experience the passion and it should accompany us in our land of a thousand scents and colors. Anyway, a short time later it turned out that we never get there, because he couldn't bring himself to betray his beloved wife. Tormented by these thoughts, he slowed my passion and apologized for his behavior. For me it was a gift from heaven, because I realized that he is an angel. At that moment I knew that my call for help was heard by God, he did not leave me alone with my pain for a minute. He was aware of my disappointed thinking and he sent me an angel. Since that day I have no longer felt any hatred for men, through this experience I have regained my belief in everlasting love. I cannot find my pain because of the lost love, it was lifted by the angel. This taught me to accept decisions. Now I also know that the man of my dreams exists and that he will find me, because I am standing in the sunlight and he can recognize me when he meets my smile.
Author : Rosemarie Schmid
