Wednesday, July 8, 2020
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| Short Stories : The Attachment Partner (Chapter 20) |
Mmh, nice when the sun wakes you up like this. Now I just need to know where I am. Somehow tricky every time I wake up I am somewhere else and, with the best of my will, I cannot remember how I got to the position in question.
Sometimes I think I have lost not only my eyesight but also part of my memory.
The pillows next to me are completely crushed so I can assume that I didn't spend the night alone. Maybe it wasn't a dream that I was with Gillian yesterday.
But where was he now?
I was just trying to get up carefully to find out where I was when I noticed someone was entering the room.
"Hey little one, I see you're feeling better," I heard Percy's voice. Too bad I had hoped it would be someone else. But it's not for nothing that dreams are foams.
Another burst. let's hear what he wants again. "Then I'll check you out right away. Because tonight I have to be on the Sunshine again and you will do us all a favor and really relax."
I noticed how I was doing myself, quite shaky on my feet. What interested me more, how were the twins? I got the answer promptly without even asking. Apparently the question was written on my face.
"The twins are developing nicely, despite your theater. I guess you will feel them soon. They seem to be doing the purest wrestling in you. They still have room. What else should you expect from this mother?" I heard him laughing while he was examining me. "You could do us all a favor. Take it a little easier. You have time without end. So please no stress. It is not good for you or your children now, do you promise me that?" Somehow I had the feeling that the second time I should promise something to someone within a short time.
Apparently no one really trusted me anymore. But well, if he just wanted to have that promise, he could have it. I didn't feel stressed at all, I just wanted to be left alone.
"Ok, I can give you this promise, because I don't want to lose the two under any circumstances." and just when I wanted to ask him where I was actually the door was opened after a short knock. I was amazed, but also very pleased to hear Korina's voice.
Apparently everyone knew where I was, just myself.
"Birgid, I'm glad you're feeling better again. Do you know that you scared us all?" She came up to me and said: "Well, it looks like Percy has patched you up again. You should soon have time to do something again. You have to say when? Then I invite all our friends and we leave one huge party rise. What do you say? " that was typical of her again, just not resting for five minutes. I had the feeling if it was up to her she would have taken me straight away and the party would have risen even today. "Well, if you wait a little longer with your party, I have absolutely nothing against it. But at the moment I'm still a bit shaky on my feet. Unless you want me to be gone after half an hour at the latest."
If I really consider it, a party with all my friends was really not the worst idea. Maybe this life would be a little more fun. But at the moment I was really able to do that. I felt like I had been rotated by a meat grinder and then put together again.
At the same time in the entrance area.
Gillian, who had just been packed with breakfast for himself and Biggi, just heard Sita say: "You can't go up there easily. What do you think who you are?
"We are from the Court Concorium and want to speak to Comander Birgid Hinz."
"Hello gentlemen. I'm Gillian Willis." and said to Sita, "Please take the tray from me, I think breakfast will have to wait a little longer."
"So sir, now I have time for you." he said to the three men who had believed that they would come to Birgid so easily.
One of them said: "There must be an error, we want to go to Comander Hinz and not to them. It's something official."
Gillian made a good match for this game and said only: "You don't really believe that I will let her go to her now. She only woke up yesterday from a coma and absolutely needs rest. Either you clarify this with me, by the way, I am your attachment partner or you go undone. " but it wouldn't be as easy as he thought it would be.
"Mr Willis, you can't stop us talking to her anyway."
"Well, if I couldn't prevent this conversation, I wouldn't be so sure if I were you. Furthermore, they are here on Terra and on my property. For that reason alone I would advise them to behave. Otherwise I will take care of that the local police are moving them away from here. They should know that they have no powers here. We are here on Terra and this planet is not yet part of the planetary union. "
After some back and forth, he was about to have this consortium removed from his island. When there was a sudden knock on the door and a young woman in her early forties, about eight feet tall and with long red wavy hair entered without waiting for an answer. "It looks like I'll be just in time." somehow he found it strange who was all on his island. He had never seen her before. He could certainly remember her in her looks.
"Mr Willis, I am Birgid's lawyer Korina Patlan. Could it be that you need my help with these gentlemen? They are known to be quite persistent to achieve their goal," he found her appearance very personable, but said: "No, I don't think so. The gentlemen were about to leave. Oh, gentlemen, you can hand over the letter for Comander Hinz to me. I will show you when you are better, especially since your lawyer is still there.
You don't need to show up here again for the next time. I'll make sure that Birgid has her peace in front of them.
If she is better until the trial, we will be there. Otherwise not. Come on, I'll show you the way out. "When they were gone, he just saw Biggi's lawyer go up the stairs and disappear into the bedroom.
When he found Sita in the kitchen she asked him: "Can you tell me what all those people at Birgid are like? I thought she still needed some rest."
"No Mamusch I don't take it either but assume that it is her lawyer, Mike, her brother and Percy. But you will find out right away and you know what I will send them all home, well except for their brother and Percy.
I just have breakfast with her now and in peace. "Grabbed the tray and took an energetic step into his bedroom. Where he actually wanted to be in front of one.
When he finally arrived, he was just hearing Birgid to someone completely foreign to him, although he had seen him somewhere before, said: "Of course I will come and visit you soon, but not alone."
"Oh angel you can bring the children with you. But your new one doesn't necessarily have to be. But actually you prefer me all alone!" and looked at her with such a dachshund look that Gillian would have loved to put him out through the closed window into the fresh air. He didn't really care that he was on the first floor. What was this guy imagining? To swing such talk here with him.
"Frankie, get yourself back in. Slowly it should even have spoken to you, I really like you. But you're not my type. Besides, I'm forgiven. So now give me a kiss and be back peaceful. I could also use some rest. "
"So my fellowships, the visiting time is over. There's coffee downstairs in the kitchen and then I hope for you that you all have your own at home. That is mine and Biggis at home. Goodbye." his voice was anything but friendly.
When Frankie walked past him, Gillian heard him quietly: "And please let your fingers off her unless you want to have trouble." and looked at certain Fränkie anything but peaceful. If only he knew why this guy seemed so familiar to him.
Somehow he had the feeling that something was wrong with her. The way she sat there staring holes in the air. Earlier, she had looked normal, and now trouble seemed to be behind.
As if she was considering whether to talk to him about it or not.
She put back the sandwich she had been holding in her hand all the time and said, "Gillian, don't get me wrong. Why did you bring me here? It was you, wasn't it? If you're honest with yourself and me, don't you really know me?
There are no Birgid Falkner you met. Not anymore. She used to be a short episode in my life and Comander Birgid Hinz, "a short pause. As if she was thinking about what she wanted to say.
"Well, believe me, it doesn't exist any more. At most a faint shadow from her. Why don't you let me go back to the Sunshine with Mike and Percy? Life with me is anything but easy. It doesn't matter whether I stay blind or not. My life has always been a kaos and I don't think anything will change either. "
Slowly but surely he was pissed off, she couldn't even stop with this self-pity. He doesn't exactly fasten her shoulders gently to turn her in his direction. If she couldn't see him at least he wanted to look her in the face. When he raised her face to look her in the eye, even if it didn't help in her case. He only saw tears and fear. Why couldn't she just admit that she was afraid? Everyone understood that, sometimes more like self-pity.
"Man Biggi, don't make it so difficult for me and you." he said to her. His anger at her was gone.
He took her very tenderly in his arms and knew that he would somehow make her understand that he did not have to be afraid of the future. Only would she finally understand that she was no longer alone?
What did Percy mean? All you had to do was fight with the same energy to be healthy as she had to fight to die. Well, it looked like it wasn't healthy that was the problem, but wanting life. "How do you get the idea that I don't know you? Well you are and you can't deny that, Birgid Falkner and Birgid Hinz. Even if you had different names at different times. You are still you. I am not in in love with a name but with a person, with you, with all your good and bad sides, and I have no intention of giving up now.
If you make everything else easy for me at the moment. I don't think I would see you again if I let you in the sunshine now, do I? I know you more than you think At least your past. But who cares about the past and the future belongs to you, you just have to have a little trust in me. Then we can do it together. "
She looked a bit coy when he got the answer: "Are you so sure about that? I would like to believe you. Only if I think about everything that I started going wrong, at least in the private sphere. It would be too nice who would be different. If you really want it, we can give it a try because if I really think about it I was never as happy as the week with you and it would be better for the children Are they not really interested in you?"
If I really think about it I could more than imagine that I would be very happy with him. But if things went wrong again? What then, and then there would also be two small children.
On the other hand, I hadn't promised my children I would change and lead a normal life.
Oh god, if you really exist, please make sure you are doing well this time. I have had enough disappointments and more will be very difficult to cope with. I love him too much for that. But why shouldn't everything go well with me? Maybe I just had to trust in him and in him?
"Biggi can you tell me where you are with your thoughts now?" I heard him ask. Hopefully you couldn't see what was going through my head.
"I was just trying to get clear about this emotional chaos in me."
"Well my darling the children in you are only of secondary interest to me. First it has to be clarified clearly with their mother. I love love more than my life even if it doesn't seem to interest them at all. Although I can remember a time she almost burst with jealousy when I was only on stage with someone else. " She had been staring out the window for some time. Although it was obvious that she was listening. Even if she tried to make it as if it didn't concern the whole thing. As if he was talking to someone else, not to her. Should anyone understand the women and especially them. As many women as he had met, but none of them were as stubborn and stubborn as she was. But he hadn't loved anyone as much as she did.
Now he was sitting here next to her and just didn't know what to do. As he considered what he could do, he saw her turn back to him. You as desperate as he felt. It was up to her to end this teather here.
"Ha, I would have wanted to see you if I knelt in front of someone else to sing him a love song. Besides, I don't think it's good that you consider your children to be secondary.
Even if our relationship goes wrong, it's yours and not just mine. "She hissed angrily at him.
Suddenly he grinned at her with both ears and said only: "Could it be that you are still jealous. So you don't care about everything like you do. Clarify me."
Now he might have caught me better that way. I was actually as tired of this game as he was, I just hadn't noticed it yet.
If I was honest with myself I wanted to be with him so I would only ruin our relationship. But this time it would be my fault
"Yes, I love you, I never stopped. That's why everything is so difficult." "So I don't know what's so difficult about it." and by the way came the question that interested him, not at all, at least he seemed to want to make me believe: "Who is this Frankie?"
Was he going to screw me up now or what was he up to? As a precaution, I asked again: "Are you serious now?"
"Yes, I'm serious. I want to know who's looking after my girlfriend with eyes in love!" I really couldn't help smiling, so the wind blew
"You're not jealous. There's no reason for that. I've known Fränkie for ages. He has been a friend of Mike, Piet and me since we were children. When was the last time you were in Burma? I don't mean for one two days but for longer. He is a singer there and the crush of women par excellence, does that seem familiar to you? "
Now I would have loved to look him in the face so I only heard him answer: "Singer yes, but swarm of women ...?"
"Isn't that you? Oh yeah I forgot the girls didn't run after you Weird, weird. I think we have to go for a walk in a bigger city or go shopping again. Then let's see how it is with the swarm of women. "Sitting next to him, I noticed that a feeling was spreading inside me that I had already forgotten. I was simply happy and content to be with him and here.
He had won. I would try to get my life under control again, but not alone this time. It looked like we would even be a real family. If I was honest I always wanted it.
"You Gillian one thing would interest me before we go to the others how do I actually get here, I mean after Terra. The last thing I can really remember clearly is that I puked Dad and that was on the Sunshine . " He gave my face a long kiss in his hands and said only: "I brought you here, what did you think. So and now let's have breakfast in peace and then we go out I have to introduce someone else. "
Now we were sitting here on the beach. He had drawn me close to him. I could feel every breath of him and it was just lovely to be held by him.
Why had I only doubted that everything would be fine. You just had to be happy with him. Although if I thought about it like that, I think it would have cost him a lot of nerve in the past few weeks.
Well, if I really think about it, I was in terrible trouble when I met Sam. But now it was better not to think of Nostra.
Only when I think about this planet does this hatred of its imaginary people bother me again. They really believed everyone seriously that only they had a right to life and everyone else was there to serve them.
If I just thought about it, I had gathered endless information for my government and what they were doing. Nothing!! Just don't think about it otherwise I would burst with anger.
Why had Sam reappeared so often in my mind lately. Maybe he wanted to remind me that I was still connected to him. I knew I would have to let go of him or go with him to the end of his path.
But actually I couldn't imagine that anymore.
Because if I was honest with myself I loved Gillian more than I had ever loved Sam. Despite everything, I knew that it would be difficult to let go of Sam and return to the existing world on my own.
If Sam had to wait a bit, I wasn't strong enough yet. It was also very nice to feel both of them in me, if a little crazy. But then, had I ever been normal in my life? Rather no.
Now I was not with Sam, now I really would not be with him anymore.
It was Gillian who was with me now and I had that tingling sensation that I mostly felt in his presence.
"You Gillian"
"What is my angel?" I heard him answer. How could you just call me an angel? I was probably the opposite, though sometimes not entirely voluntarily. "I want to apologize to you. Well, you already know about the stress lately and stuff." Now in excuse I was really not good. But I hoped he would take it anyway.
"You don't have to apologize unless you listen to me now. I wanted to ask you something very important." I turned to face him. He sounded kind of weird, not like usual. There was nothing to ask me and then you could be afraid of the answer. At least not him. He took my face in his hands and gave me a long, infinitely tender kiss.
I wish he would never stop, but then I heard him say: "I love you and that's why I want to ask you something," suddenly he crouched in front of me and I thought what was he doing now so small I was too Not. Then I heard him ask: "Do you want to be my wife? I just can't live without you anymore. I need you and your Kaos."
I did not expect that and was therefore completely perplexed. He had really proposed marriage to me. I held his hands and looked at him. At least I would have liked to do it and replied: "Yes, I will. But you have also carefully considered my darling. I will certainly not make a simple wife. But certainly someone who loves you very much." I heard myself overjoyed, if a little confused.
End of the binding partner
Author : Brigitte Thielmann
